Why does it always come only this way to me
Repeated so many times, I haven't learnt anything
I have been hiding just to keep myself quiet
I never wanted (I've never won), I've never even tried
What if you die right now?
Would you be proud of things you've done?
I'm hearing chime
And I know I'm running out of time
I lived my whole life in a doubt
Please tell me, tell if I ever was right
But truth is I'm a deceiver
I'm not fucking moron and I can clearly realize
That all what I need to move on is to quit this accustomed way of addiction
But truth is I'm deceiver
Fuck
Oh no, now I see
That all of my intensions were based on my fears
I fear both of being late
And something makes me doing unwarranted actions
What if I fail and I never make it
With every new step I feel more unprotected
They say that I'm only chasing a vision
And this is not what I'm supposed to be
I even don't know if it is my decision
But I can't be myself without my dreams
What a pathetic child
What a hopeless life
I hate everything I was
So many possibilities were just thrown away
Were just thrown fucking away
One last chance to see ghost's dance
Before forever forgeting their inviting song
I'll cut one more time to make sure these connections are severed
Yeah, it's right now or it's fucking never
