Текст песни Raison D'etre - Переживания

In doubtful joy I was led ,
Not noticing that happiness real close ,
Then I swore in reverse
The one that gave me joy to look.
I could not read ,
Like the Bible , where the whole truth of life
With a torn soul of some few lines
Which is more important for me any reproach in the world .
The false sense of pains
Before those inside are empty .
Now I myself have sworn ,
With all sorts of sins come ends .

Whether to allow me to turn everything backwards ,
Or else I do not sleep at night ?