I held a grip so tight
I could never let you go
But you were fading and I cannot let my apathetic self hold me back from who I'm meant to be
I can't hold myself back
This is not reality
How did I fall in love with someone I barely knew
Your true colours bled through and burned a hole deep inside my heart
I felt it deep down
I was nothing to anyone
How does it feel living day to day without a spine
Tell me now, you selfish lifeless man
I'm past the point of feeling anything
I was everything you ever wanted but nothing I wanted to be
I wish I could set the clocks back and set myself free
I am the martyr of my own destiny
I want to be there the day your heart gives out
So you can feel how I felt that day
When I close my eyes, all I see is you
That distant memory that I wish wasn't true
But I turned around and I felt what it was to be alive
I wish I could never be
I tried so hard just to see what I'm meant to be
I turned around and felt alive.
