Stuck in a childrens hospital 
I prayed I'd die before I got old 
In my sleep i tore out my iv 
And bled all over my bedsheet 
The walls were a pretty peppermint green 
When my family came to visit me 
But that didn't make me happy 
Six in a hay barn I lost my soul 
And could barely breathe on the bus ride home 
The steroids they used to medicate 
Made my body hurt and I gained weight 
As I kid I felt so ugly 
I didn't know what the doctor had done to me 
And to this day I curse this body 
I read that steroids can trigger bipolar disorder when you're young
And now I know why I cannot have fun 
I know why I can not feel loved 
I know why I miss being young