reasons seem like a familiar promise
a scent that has blown far away
walking a path leading nowhere
to try and redeem my disgrace
i feel so alone when you're with me
but when you're away i can't breathe
i wish you could find it to trust me
but you can't cos you're so far away
and i'm bleeding for you
my blood runs cold
cos i'm lost without you
crawling out of this but never above this i'm dying slowly
i'm just not that shallow to change myself for you
i'm sorry that i'm not perfect
i'm lost in these words
in these lies in this pain that you gave me
all knowingly
i'm a fuck i'm a liar a red-painted sinner
oh god please
won't you just kill me today
i'm waiting for you
my blood runs cold
cos i'm lost without her
and nothing's real to me
cos i'm numb to my own face
i'm my own worst enemy
i've brought on my own death
i'm breathing my last breath
openly i'm drowning
openly i'm diving into a hell i call life
wish i could find a quicker easier way to die
nothing in life is worth living
so why the fuck try
cos i'm living as a slave
all i've learned
is nothing as it seems