Stuck in a childrens hospital
I prayed I'd die before I got old
In my sleep i tore out my iv
And bled all over my bedsheet
The walls were a pretty peppermint green
When my family came to visit me
But that didn't make me happy
Six in a hay barn I lost my soul
And could barely breathe on the bus ride home
The steroids they used to medicate
Made my body hurt and I gained weight
As I kid I felt so ugly
I didn't know what the doctor had done to me
And to this day I curse this body
I read that steroids can trigger bipolar disorder when you're young
And now I know why I cannot have fun
I know why I can not feel loved
I know why I miss being young